diff --git a/socket.h b/socket.h
index e0fd87f..27e5b05 100644
--- a/socket.h
+++ b/socket.h
@@ -58,8 +58,8 @@
      * us to our fd event system.  For remote asockets
      * these fields are not used.
      */
-    fdevent fde = {};
-    int fd = 0;
+    fdevent* fde = nullptr;
+    int fd = -1;
 
     // queue of data waiting to be written
     std::deque<Range> packet_queue;